“Hush now; you are doing greater than you think.”
When it comes to pottery, and most things in life, I focus on the process, and not so much the end result. This is something that has taken a lot of work, a lot of practicing letting go, and detachment, and smashing pots along the way. Sometimes, it is really healthy. But sometimes, it’s not. Sometimes I focus on the process so because I do not believe what is there in the moment, or what I create, or that I am good enough.
I will have works shown for the first time in 7 years this June and I am struggling. Yes, it is partly the logistical side of teaching and work preventing studio time. But in all reality, that is an excuse. Life always has obstacles, but if something matters to you, you find a way to make time for it. My real struggle is finishing pieces, not because of the logistics, but because of my perspective. I would rather cut a pot in half and learn from it than show work I am not proud of. While I whole-heartedly believe that is a good thing sometimes, it certainly is not healthy when you find yourself doing that all of the time.
Part of the learning is being okay with not being “there” yet. Accept where you are as you work towards where you want to go. When I take a step back and look at where I was as a potter, and a person, a year ago, and then see the pots I can throw and the life I have created today, I have to admit, I am pretty proud. None of it is perfect. But it is progress. And where I am today is a part of me. So rather than hiding that, and seeing it all as learning, I need to allow myself to embrace where I am today. Because even though it is creating who I will become, it is a part of who I am, and I have come a very long way.
Remind your mind to be kind. Take a moment to pause and embrace how far you have come. You are doing greater than you think.
Tell your mind to be kind:
- Take a step back
- Stop worrying about where you are going and focus on where you are. Take a moment to pause. Notice how when you take a step back, things change.
- Pretend you are having the conversation that is going on in your mind with someone else. Would you say the same things to them that you are telling yourself? Stop being so hard on yourself and be your own friend. Think about where you have been and where you are right now. Chances are, a few things have changed, and you have grown along the way. Simply because you aren’t “there” yet, you are here now, and that is something to embrace.
- Notice this moment. See who you are right now. Honor and celebrate all that you are in this moment.